Tis the season
So I just finished wrapping my christmas presents. Some i've been collecting since August already (which makes me feel ahead of the game) and yet no matter how early I start there are ALWAYS people I don't know what to get and wait till the December rush.
I usually enjoy giving gifts, but as of late I am sick of stuff in general. My stuff, your stuff, needing more stuff, giving useless stuff. Even giving great stuff, it's still just stuff and I have so much stuff. Why do I need more? And I know this is hard to explain to people who always know how to buy a thoughtful gift. They are the worst because you know that they usually enjoy gifts too and being so stinking thoughtful they deserve your thoughtfulness back, but I wish we could equate prayers or kind thoughts, or even sticking up for someone behind their back as a gift they would receive in the same arena as a "wrapped gift".
For me I've come to a point that I no longer WANT to give obligatory gifts. (even though I have a few under my tree) If I can't think of something you NEED or won't fill your arteries with more plaque and fat than no gift for you. But that being said, why does that need to mean I don't value you or love you or even appreciate alllll that you've contributed to my life. I wonder how other cultures work it out. Maybe I just need to become crafty(fat chance) and make stuff. Besides baking, or a nice note I suck in the craft department.
Again I feel like there is a truth out there but I just can't get my hands on it. I know the way I've been doing it isn't right but what is right?
No easy answers. I'll let you know when I figure out the questions of the universe.
I usually enjoy giving gifts, but as of late I am sick of stuff in general. My stuff, your stuff, needing more stuff, giving useless stuff. Even giving great stuff, it's still just stuff and I have so much stuff. Why do I need more? And I know this is hard to explain to people who always know how to buy a thoughtful gift. They are the worst because you know that they usually enjoy gifts too and being so stinking thoughtful they deserve your thoughtfulness back, but I wish we could equate prayers or kind thoughts, or even sticking up for someone behind their back as a gift they would receive in the same arena as a "wrapped gift".
For me I've come to a point that I no longer WANT to give obligatory gifts. (even though I have a few under my tree) If I can't think of something you NEED or won't fill your arteries with more plaque and fat than no gift for you. But that being said, why does that need to mean I don't value you or love you or even appreciate alllll that you've contributed to my life. I wonder how other cultures work it out. Maybe I just need to become crafty(fat chance) and make stuff. Besides baking, or a nice note I suck in the craft department.
Again I feel like there is a truth out there but I just can't get my hands on it. I know the way I've been doing it isn't right but what is right?
No easy answers. I'll let you know when I figure out the questions of the universe.
2 Comments:
Oh my can I ever relate to you!!! I love blessing people, but choosing and giving gifts is not my thing. I know some people who are great at it and it makes me totally jealous because I then feel like I'm not as good a friend or something when I'm not on the ball with a great gift!
Anyways, pressure's off, Rhonda, you don't have to buy me anything! ;)
I love to give gifts but I also love to get gifts too. I especially feel that I love to get gifts when there is not gift for me or I'm overlooked. It does feel like you aren't loved. But more like I'm not thought of. My problem this year is not knowing what people should buy me. I don't know. I either think of storage problems or that I need a way of getting out everyday for my boys sake. Who knows. I hope you find a happy medium to your gift dilemma.
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